For a long time

I wanted to be 17

such a magical number

a woman but not really

confusing just as it is comforting

to be blanketed with protection

I know is going to be lifted soon

I close my eyes and I am back

to the age where I longed to be this age

I take a long look at the final stage of my teenage surroundings

that are still covered with the delusions

I can be anything I want to be

I applaud the little girl

who waited for so long

I can’t help but wonder

if the sweet simplicity

youth can only give

is what i’ll always be chasing after.